Hello my people ❤
I hope that all of you are doing fine. I know that most of you love it in here but don’t forget to get out of wordpress to support me on my YouTube Channel and my other social media.
As you probably are all witness, I have been doing good, much better than when I first started my blog. I am personally proud of myself for my improvement and all my accomplishments. I love to see that I get to inspire people just by being myself and spreading the truth. I am proudly growing in this healing journey, even if sometimes I do face challenges. I take less time ovethinking on problems than I used to, knowing that it won’t bring me anywhere or even make it any better, in other words avoiding panick attacks as much as I can.
Since what happened to me in 2013, nightmares and flashbacks have been my unwanted bestfriends. I still remember how just a name or a face looking like one of my abusers was enough to automatically bring me back there. The weird thing is that more I am getting better and more my nightmares are getting worst. I used to dream about people getting raped or some where like unfinished dreams but I could feel like I knew what happened next. Most of the time it wasn’t even me personally going through it all in my dreams. But these few days, I am seeing myself running away from my abuser, screaming for help when I randomly saw him around a bunch of people. I saw a security guard and I asked him to take him away from me but he didn’t do anyhing. For the security guy and everybody else around me, I was just crazy. Didn’t slept so well and I really hope that sleeping won’t get harder.
Sometimes those kind of things makes you question yourself about how good you really are inside of you or if it is just your mind trying to play you? I don’t know but what I know is that I am stronger than I used to be maybe that is the reason why things are getting harder.
I believe that God will take care of me. He has never let me down and this time won’t be his first time to do it, so I am in good hands.
God bless you all ❤
The Voice Of Peace