Loneliness

I still remember years ago, when I was going through hard times how I found myself so lonely. People around me couldn’t understand me and some didn’t even believed me, so I ended up isolating myself from the world. I got into a dark place where only alcohol and razors would make me feel better. I was no longer living my life, I was walking dead, I was in a surviving mode, trying to make it through the day.

In this healing journey, I am still learning and still struggling. I don’t want any of you to think that I got it all, I don’t. I am just willing to heal and to help other people on the way to my complete healing. I have caught myself going back to things I used to do when I had enough of life, I am not sure of how to explain that feeling but it sucks. If I can give you all an advice when you have the chance to be there for someone, be there for them at 100%.

Because there is nothing worst than feeling alone with someone by your side.

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18 thoughts on “Loneliness

  1. Thank you for sharing… you are no doubt a courageous person to have weathered the storm and continue to live life… “I’m not afraid of storms, for I’m learning how to sail my ship.” Louisa May Alcott.. and I am sure that in time you will come to realize how wonderful a person that you really are and will realize you are not alone… 🙂

    “I believe that everything happens for a reason. People change so that you can learn to let go, things go wrong so that you can appreciate them when they’re right, you believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself, and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together”… Marilyn Monroe

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    1. Waaaw 😍😍❤ I mean, I am speechless. I really needed to hear that. You are absolutely right, everything happens for a reason. And situations are only there to make us grow and become wiser, only if we are willing to see what we can learn from going through hard times. People will disappoint us so we get to understand that we can only count on ourselves. I do feel like I am falling apart a little, like I can’t control my emotions. I feel kind of exhausted but I believe that God will turn it around for my good. I will use my pain to encourage someone else to overcome their struggle. Life can be hard but it is important to remind one and other that we are not ALONE. May God bless your heart for this comment, it really touches me.

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    1. Thank you very much for your support. And you are right, there is nothing worst than not being understood. Having to suffer not just because of the trauma but also because you will have to go through it all on your own, really sucks. I had to endure all the pain on my own and now I am just working on being the kind of person I would’ve needed in those situations to somebody else. I just want to give back hope to the hopeless because I have been there and I survived by God’s grace. I just want to remind everyone who is going through hard times that they got everything they need inside of them to overcome anything life will throw in their faces. May God bless your heart ❤🙏🏾

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        1. I am glad to hear that I do remind you of yourself and let me remind you that you are stronger than whatever tried to break you. In my case, I don’t just write posts, I put words on my feelings. When I started it was hard, hard to be crying, hard to be all over my feelings and to have to put words on it. The pain was real, I was hurt but I was still pushing and trying to express everything I was feeling deep inside. People that do not know me, can’t really identify myself in all those posts. But those who at first didn’t believed me, didn’t support me, today realized how hard it was for me to get over my past. It is my pleasure to share and to make you take a look at yourself from another angle. And if you see a lot of you in ME, let me tell you that we are STRONG and sometimes we get disappointed, hurt but we never give up. Even if we may struggle to get over the day, that doesn’t stop us. Even if we experience depression, trauma, violence or anything else, that won’t keep us from heading where we need to be. Have a wonderful night my friend ❤

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  2. Very well written, great discussion topic🙏💜
    Your transparency is heartfelt. Loneliness and struggles are real that’s true. I’m so grateful that you to God that you have and are continuing to overcome these obstacles. I am a witness. Learning to redirect my focus and not fall prey to isolation, but purposely getting around positive energy, influence started rediscovering myself. Getting out the house going to the library, even church groups, nature walks, etc. Then of course blogging is a great support to.
    InHisCare

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    1. Thank you so much ❤😘 I love to inspire, encourage and be there for people but I believe that it is important for them to know that I am not perfect. I am not even completely healed, I am just clearly not where I used to be but I still struggle sometimes. I want to show them my truth, the reality that even if today I am learning to face my past, nothing was easy about… NOTHING and that is okay too. This blog have been more than just a help for me, it changed my life around. To be lost it’s okay, it happens but to STAY lost is a decision. Sometimes, we really need to change our focus, in my case, with life and struggles, I am learning how to put myself first. Loving everything that I am today wasn’t easy but when I look at everything I have done since I have faced myself, I can only be proud of myself. Make sure you have a good circle, people that love and support you, if not, no need to make it a big deal, I GOT YOU 😉✊🏾❤

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  3. I learned this painful lesson, two weeks ago, in trying to “make time” on my “schedule” for someone who said I was their only friend, in all the world (not true, as I met several people who adored this someone). Perfect turned out to be the enemy of the good, and I was cast out of this person’s life, for the very reason of having a time set and a “schedule”. Yes, I am a work in progress and took some lessons from that experience.

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    1. I am glad to hear that you have learned from it, that is what matters. May God give you the strenght to get through your situation. PEOPLE will always disappoint us but God will never give up on us. Put your trust in HIM and you’ll see. Take care of yourself and God bless you! I can always make time for you my friend, anytime 😉

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  4. Ormai lo sai che basta mandar giù veleno, i cicli si chiudono, e bisogna allontanarsi dalle persone negative per avvicinarsi alle positive che, purtroppo, sono l’un per mille del Creato. Per questa ragione è difficile essere compresi nella propria famiglia: alle volte non sono proprio attrezzati per soccorrerti. Ma tu ti sei già messo in salvo da solo perchè sei speciale, sei quell’un per mille del Creato.

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