I thank you for everything!!!!
But first, I do have to thank God for your presence on earth. I am more than thankful to the Queen who raised you and made you the man that you are today. I am not here to show you off, but to share the great impact that you have in my life. I used to think that I was useless, a toy to play with and not good enough for nobody. Never thought that someone would love me for me. Never really believed in love, I was just so hurt that I couldn’t stand being alone. Even if, I felt lonely most of the time. No matter how I tried to hide my real self, all you wanted was to see what that smile was hiding. You couldn’t stop and accept what you were seeing like everyone else, you worked your ass off to meet my inner self.
I did many years hiding my feelings and my pain behind my smile, that I ended up thinking that I was actually an happy person. Until I met you and you made me meet my own self. Sometimes I thought you were a little rough with me, but it was all for my good. Today when I am going through hard times is when I actually realize that I am a changed woman. I got used to suffering so cutting myself was just making me feel better, making me feel how real the pain was. The craziest part is that you found me broken, in pieces and all you are trying to do is to clean up the mess you didn’t cause. All those years I believed my own lies, I really thought I loved myself but I was wrong. I was just pretending. But from now on, I am done pretending. If I feel like crying believe me you’ll see those tears and if I feel like saying something, I will do my best to put words on it to express my feelings and emotions. So yes, I thank you again for accepting everything that comes with me. My past always have been a burden for me, hard to talk about, but I am working on accepting everything that happened to me and on allowing it to make me a better and a stronger person. I pray that God keeps you by my side and gives you the strenght you’ll need to handle me.
If you have a special one beside you that makes you a better person, never take them for granted. It is a blessing to have someone who cares about you FOR REAL. It is a blessing to be worth enough, for someone to make sacrifices just to make you happy or make you feel better about yourself. You are blessed, just open your eyes. We should all stop complaining and start counting our blessing.